People can be happy living the life of their dreams as they take it. There are goals these people will never achieve but the fact doesn’t have a significant effect on their lives, because they’ve found that inner harmony each of us is striving for. Things seem to be more or less complete to them but there are the so-called force-majeure circumstances – something that’s always been hot on our tail: wars, natural disasters and other things we cannot control but are constantly contributing to.
I haven’t worked on my book for a while. That’s not because I don’t want to. Believe me or not but I can’t find any inspiration around. It’s a real trial to gather your thoughts under the circumstances because everything is changing so fast that you can’t sense your own emotions. There are too many thoughts and there is such a deep emptiness. This is time incomprehensible to me and millions of people. It takes too many words to express what I feel at the moment and it tends to mean big nothing. We know nothing. We never know anything. We only think that we know everything and this “awareness” gives us the imaginary right to consider ourselves to be wiser than others, but the reality destroys our relations with other people. This war created indiscrete chaos. It brought division into families. So many lives have been ruined. Children. What about children that will never be born?
There are people who have never been 100% satisfied with their existence but they have got strong reasons to feel happy. Their lives are full of laugh, light and warmth. They are able to possess many of the things they need. They have loving families and true friends. But there is something they can’t explain and it is far from the sense of harmony. It happens when we can’t realize our potential and feel like we don’t live our life to the full. This sense of frustration makes us cry at the happiest moments. We begin to feel that something went wrong. But when and why? What if we never achieve what we are meant for? We are in fear at the mere thought of losing a chance. Some of us don’t know how to interpret this life goal and always find themselves between heaven and earth. We can only feel the need to change the direction of life. Others know what they want from their life but can’t find the right way to realize a dream. Such is the case with me. I do not blush to own that I need to find my way and put my things straight.
At times we are afraid of new steps. Change… A change that will blow the new breath into our heads. But why is it so hard at times to make this change? Why can’t we take this step if all our essense strives for it…if all our soul cries for a change?… I think everyone has their reasons…but whatever be the reason I believe our will is strong enough to make the wind blow in the right direction.